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April 04, 2000

'I dream myself a new found pity. Sittin' alone in New York city, and I don't know why. I don't know why. And so I walked up on high, and I step to the edge, to see my world below. And I laughed at myself, while the tears roll down, cause it's the world I know. Oh it's the world I know.'

Happy birthday dad! He turned 58 today and he acts just like he was 49 :). I have decided that losing sleep over the controversy of my mental health and ability to use my senses is not what I want to do. I would like to take the involved parties word for it that I was worried about nothing, and what I heard/saw must have been something else. I would like to believe I can trust them and I hope I am not wrong here if not fuck 'em. I know how strongly I believed that something happened, and I didn't care for the explainations I was given at all. Much less was I pleased with the way they handled it. I felt like they had me on one line and the nutwagon driver on the other. But thank you for at least taking me somewhat seriously in the end. I have realized that we will probably not see much of each other again after about 4 1/2 months, and I want anything but the following months to be with any tensions. The MWF really, really, really needs to practice more as a team if we wish to be more competitive. We have a game tomorrow that we will play against ourselves to help, but one ain't going to do it. We were assigned the motorola project in physics class today. I think this will be a lot of fun. We are to design, draw up, lay out, propose, or what have you, a new type of communicator/orginizer/digital assitant/pager/what have you that will be targeted at people ages 12-18. I can not wait to see what we can come up with, I think this should be a lot of fun. I had an English test today that turned out to be very easy and I wish we had more like it. The upcoming test and essay in government have become take-home and optional respectively, so that takes quite a bit of stess out of my week. on top of that our project for statistics is running very smoothly and we should be fine on it. In gym today we actually dressed in the gym get-ups for the first time since first quarter. We have to get fitness testing out of the way so we can continue the rock-climbing/pamper-jumping/repelling/pole-climbing/rope-ascending course that I signed up for, for a gym class, there is no beating it. One thing I have rediscovered is in the Fremd mens locker room, only about 5% of the lockers work, the rest require large quantities of force to open and close and ofet have to be struck repeatedly to get them to do what you want. I just need to be more careful of the razor-sharp bars that make up the doors of the lockers as I now have a large cut on one of my knuckles thanks to that. Speaking of fitness testing, I found my sheet that lists all my scores that I have gotten on all the tests in high school, and I have found that I have gotten a lot more athletic in my years at fremd, mostly due to wrestling based on the location of my best improvement. I have gone from 5'3'' to 5'8'', from 94 lbs to 135 lbs, I have improved my mile by over a minute, I can do an extra 10 sit-ups for a total of 80, and I went from 7 pull-ups to 16. The only thing that hasn't really changed is the sit and reach, I have gotten 12 every single time, I guess the more things change the more they stay the same, well, I need to get some sleep 'cause I didn't really get much last night.

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