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April 10, 2000

'Mark, he got with Sharron, Sharron got Sheria, she was sharing Sharron's outlook on the topic of the seas. Mikey had a facial scar and Bobby was a racist, they were all in love with dying, they were doing it in Texas. Tommy played piano like a kid out in the rain, and then he lost his leg in Dallas, he was dancing with a train. They were all in love with dying, they were drinking from a fountain that was pourin' like an avalanche, comin' down the mountain. I don't mind the sun sometimes, the images it shows. I can taste you on my lips and smell you in my clothes. Cinnimon, and sugery, and softly spoken lies, you never know just how to look through other peoples' eyes.'

Today I made another very much twisted Flash 4 cartoon This one is a quite a step ahead of the last one that I made, and it actually shows that I sort of know what I am doing. Mr Neiweem wasn't in class today, so we did not have to present our projects yet, so now I can have a chance to finish it which is what I am going to do as soon as I am done with this. We did give our stat presentation today and it went relatively well. Considering we are all seniors and are concerned with very little along the lines of schoolwork at this point. Today it snowed again, although there was no accumulation. The snow did, however, manage to turn otherwise tolerable drives into blithering idiots of the freeway. Every street wa backed up to every other street. Often in several mile chuncks too. I had a hard time even getting out of my neighborhood. I have a problem. I don't seem to know how to get Katie to understand that I have a right to feel hurt by what happened. I am sorry about her friend, I have told her this on many occasions, I I don't want to do anything to dishonor them, but she have to understand, she can still screw with people's minds when she isn't feeling well. I don't really know why she won't agknowledge my right to be a little upset about the whole prom situation, but I am, what can I say? I'm sorry she had to get frustrated about it but that is one of the reasons I don't even feel I can talk about it at the moment. I have one of the greatest ability to not be affected by shit that gets thrown at me, I am able to absorb it and not feel any different. I consider this a double-edged sword. While it prevents me from being hurt a lot of times, it makes it very easy to be taken advantage of and not even care. And something tells me that I am going to run into this problem in the future.

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