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April 11, 2000

'Woke up this morning and the sun was gone. Turned on some music to start my day. I lost myself in a familiar song. I closed my eyes and I slipped away. It's more than a feeling, more than a feeling. When I hear that old song they used to play. I begin dreaming. 'Til I see Marianne walk away. So many people have come and gone. Their faces fade as the years go by. Yet I still recall, as I walk along. As clear as the sun in the summer sky. It's more than a feeling, more than a feeling. When I hear that old song they used to play. I begin dreaming. 'Til I see Marianne walk away. When I'm tired and I think I'm cold, I hide in my music and forget the day. And dream of a girl I used to know. I closed my eyes and she slipped away, she slipped away. It's more than a feeling, more than a feeling. When I hear that old song the used to play. I begin dreaming. 'Til I see Marrieanne walk away.'

90% of all songs are actually depressing if you listen to the lyrics. I have come to realize that since I started with the whole lyrics of the day thing. Oh well, I really like that song, depressing as it may be. And it is truer than I thought. I love listening to music whenever I can. Every moment I'm in my car (it seems like most of my life is spent behind the wheel) and most all the time I am at my computer. I love just about all types of music, and there are few songs that I have said sucked in basically ever mood I am ever in. (anything 98 degrees, N'SYNC, or backstreet boys is a bunch of cra that all sounds the same and has shitty lyrics, but they don't have much music in the grand scheme of things, so I am not going to concern myself with them. Another thing I have gotten back to doing is working on my rubiks cube. Back in the day (november) before I started this journal I learned how to solve it and I had it down to around 2 minutes from any position to finished each time. I guess that would classify me in the dork range once again, but at least I was determined. People don't realize that you don't have to be smart to solve a rubiks cube, all you have to do is have a decent memory, and a lot of patience to practice. I don't even think when I am solving the thing, and a vast majority of the time I am not even watching what I am doing. I hate to ruin the magic for any of you out there, but all I am doing is repeating moves in a specific order. It looks like I am actaully figuring it out as I go along. oh well. Go to ask jeeves If you want to be a dork in this catagorey just like me. If you have a computer that is always connected to the internet (cable, xDSL, LAN) I would strongly recommend a program such as this: Zone Alarm. Even if you just play around with it and see what it can do, I suggest it. It is pretty much a set-up once and forget about it program that prevents people from gaining unauthorized access to your computer through an open port, such as 139 (NetBEUI) which is always open on your computer if you have a lan that allows file/printer sharing (hint hans, get the program). It is incredibly non-intrusive, and any program that uses the internet will run through it fine (netscape, outlook, IE, napster, AIM, unreal, bullet-proof ftp, ICQ all work) and it doesn't signifigantly eat bandwidth/system resources. And it's free. In otherwords, get the program, I recomend you set both the local and internet security levels to medium. that will get the job done without being a pain in the ass. Let's all have a moment of silence in mourning of Joel's dead engine block... ...okay that'll do. No seriously, I feel bad cause having his car be all broke ass like that is really not what he needs right now. I hope that it can be resolved without any major expenses. Katie admitted to me today that basically she knows that she fucked up, and that she didn't mean to hurt me. And I believe her. I got caught in the middle of a bunch of fans just as the shit was being inserted into them. The funniest part (from my point of view anyway) is that this whole thing has sparked crusades to rip on Katie in my honor. I have to say that I am flattered, but that's all I have to say.

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