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April 17, 2000

'Just when everything was making sense. You took away all my self-confidence. Now all that I've been hearing must be true. I guess I'm not the only boy for you. That's what I get. That's what I get. That's what I get. That's what I get. How can you turn me into this? After you just taught me how to kiss. I told you I'd never say goodbye. Now I'm slipping on the tears you made me cry. But that's what I get, that's what I get, that's what I get, that's what I get. Why's it come as a surprize? To think that I was so nieve. Maybe it didn't mean that much, but it meant everything to me. That's what I get, that's what I get, that's what I get, that's what I get.'

Damn, Trent Reznor has some severe break-up issues, seeing as just about every song has that brutal theme in it, ouch. I guess that topic just makes up some of the best lyrics which is, as far as I know, what Nine Inch Nails is shooting for. Well today, as most mondays do, partially sucked, and the other part, well, it wasn't so bad. I learned several (well re-enforced lessons I knew) lessons today. One being that you must never get caught up doing something and lose sight of the big picture. I went downtown to fix some copmuters at my dad's office, and I was so busy trying to fix something that didn't want to be fixed that I missed the point. Once my dad reminded me of the goal this was all trying to accomplish, I did somthing completely different that took five minutes, that ended up getting the same goal accomplished. Secondly, is that people love beating the shit out of themselves. I'm convinced that relationships are the sole source of pain in the world, and friendships are the only source of happiness. So why do we enjoy doing this? pfft, cause however we're wired it was done when someone was smoking up. We watched RAW tonight, and is one of the first times in a long time that I watched it and felt wholely entertained by it, they actually had cool plot twists and everything. The soap opera lives on! So while we were watching RAW, I left 16 godlike bots to beat the hell out of each other in a small room with insta-gib (one shot one kill) mode on. I have a screenshot of the disaster area when the dust still had yet to settle, and it appears as though lungfish's Shadow flew to the lead and stayed there most of the game. On the way back home from Chicago today, something interesting happened. I was going to try to get some sleep, but I ended up thinking instead. I re-explained to myself Einstien's Theory of Relativity. I then came up with several examples to prove it. And then I figured out why it is kinda a dumb theory (no offence Einstien). One of the main concepts says, that nothing can travel faster than the speed of light. The problem is, he assumes this to be true in order to proove it. Example: (the most common one) Guy 'A' is on a train moving at speed 'X', Guy 'B' is watching the train go by. Guy 'A' shines a light straight up at a mirror on the cieling of the train. To him, the light travels 2h (the height of the car and back). Guy 'B' sees somthing different, he sees the light move in a triangle pattern due to velocity X. There for, relative to Guy A, Guy B sees the light travel further. But the light leaves the flashlight and gets back to the flashlight at the same instant no matter where you are. And the same quantity of time elapses in both situations, hmm. So if light travels at the same speed no matter what, and it can't be affected by how fast X is, than that means that time itself must have gone by faster for Guy 'A'. Theoretically, the faster you go the faster time will go buy, because the faster you go, the larger the descrepency in distances that is seen between Guy 'A' and Guy 'B'. As X approaches the speed of light, the speed of time approaches infinity. Thus, time would cease to exsist. If you went faster than the speed of light, time would in fact go backwards. This is why Einstien felt that nothing can travel at or above the speed of light. But I mean honestly, who can claim outright that time can't travel backwards, how foolish of Einstien to make such a rediculous assumption. Uh, oh, I think I can feel myself getting tired now, So I have to go lay down and try to will myself to actually fall asleep.

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