chaz720.net - journal

June 14, 2000

'Hello. Is there anybody in there? Just nod if you can hear me. Is there anyone home? Come on, now. I hear you're feeling down. Well I can ease your pain, Get you on your feet again. Relax. I need some information first. Just the basic facts: Can you show me where it hurts? There is no pain, you are receding. A distant ship's smoke on the horizon. You are only coming through in waves. Your lips move but I can't hear what you're sayin'. When I was a child I had a fever. My hands felt just like two balloons. Now I got that feeling once again. I can't explain, you would not understand. This is not how I am. I have become comfortably numb. Ok. Just a little pinprick. There'll be no more --Aaaaaahhhhh! But you may feel a little sick. Can you stand up? I do believe it's working. Good. That'll keep you going for the show. Come on it's time to go. There is no pain, you are receding. A distant ship's smoke on the horizon. You are only coming through in waves. Your lips move but I can't hear what you're sayin'. When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse, Out of the corner of my eye. I turned to look but it was gone. I cannot put my finger on it now. The child is grown, the dream is gone. I have become comfortably numb.'

Consider yourself lucky if you were even able to read the lyrics here as well as what I am saying, because xoom is being so incredibly retarded right now, and as you may or may not be able to see Here apparently "Some member services may be experiencing difficulties." oh well, since I am not only not paying for this site's hosting, in anyway whatsoever, I guess I can't complain, and the fact that I am not entirely following their TOS to the 't' I shouldn't really do any complaining at all. But if they are going to offer such a cool service they should definately not do it half-assed. No one likes that. Well I am writing this from Joel's house cause my computer is here. I brought it here to play an OGL game. But unfortunately, that didn't really work out. The other team was unable to procre a working server so we decided that we would play on a public server, but that only worked until random people started showing up in the server and playing. So we figured we would play tomorrow when they could get their server up and running properly. But sadly, the MWF is no more. It looks as though we have another case of C-Town Snipaz syndrome. Rosie and Hans started the Creekside Crypts on the 2vs2 CTF ladder. And what a surprize, everyone is blaming joel for the break up... ...yay! another reason to hate and despize joel. Is he innocent? no. He did tend to have to make tough decisions, and people weren't happy with them, and he didn't always handle it all that well, so sue him. Is it Rosie's fault? he was basically the first to leave, and to throw knives at joel. How about Jay, or Joe or Hans, they saw joel go down in Rosie's book and figured, eh, what the hell why not, cause, uh, joel is gay and he sucks. Milzy got tired of not playing enough in the games. Is it my fault? well, I did play like shit the last two games, and I didn't help the team morale, and maybe I am one who wasn't always in the best health when I was playing and should have been quicker to voulenteer my spot, so I'm not free from blame. But do we want to have a team that is just going to bicker and complain at every moment. I think that it at times becomes like a job. I have had to haul my computer across town several times, occasionally on short notice to get to a cable modem so that I could play. And by the way, as far as Hans being one of the original founders of the MWF, I think that's kinda dumb. As I recall, Hans was one of the last people to join. The original team was Joel Rosie and the OSU guys, even I just kinda came along a little later. I don't wanna argue about this, and I'm not going to, I think it's a shame that I wasted 3 hours of my time redoing the MWF website for a team that doesn't have enough will to even exsist let alone get together and do some ass kicking. But then like I said, who wants a team if all we can agree on is disagreement? and from some of the e-mails that have gone around so far, I don't think we can even agree on that. What a funny chunk of irony it is that today is flag day, he he. Pfft. So Joel, Marci, Katie and I saw Man on the Moon tonight, that movie is really good, and I just might have to get that one on DVD to add to my collection. If you haven't seen it, go see it. I leave you now with that assignment.

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