chaz720.net - journal

June 25, 2000

'Disarm you with a smile. And cut you like you want me to. Cut that little child, inside of me and such a part of you. Ooh, the years burn. I used to be a little boy, so old in my shoes. And what I choose is my choice, what's a boy supposed to do? The killer in me is the killer in you. My love, I send this smile over to you. Disarm you with a smile. And leave you like they left me here, to wither in denial. The bitterness of one who's left alone. Ooh, the years burn. Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn. I used to be a little boy, so old in my shoes. And what I choose is my voice, what's a boy supposed to do? The killer in me is the killer in you. My love, I send this smile over to you. The killer in me is the killer in you.'

Well Xoom's web servers are now officially un-fuX0red so it looks as though now when I write in here, I can assume that people will be able to read it again. Consider yourselves are wonderful people now, yay! you are once again blessed with the uninteruppted random details of whats going on in my life. Yesterday was pretty cool, I didn't really do a whole lot during the day, but I went to have dinner with my Grandmother, my Aunt, and my cousins at Baker's Square. My cousins really liked the food there so it went over pretty well. After dinner I brought my computer over to Milzy's house to play some counter-strike. The problem being, while one of Milzy's computer's worked along with my computer and Rosie's laptop, Milzy's other computer, Joe's computer, Hans's laptop, and Joel's computer were copmletely functionless. I don't know for sure what it was, but Joel was there the least amount of time, and seemed to be the most pissed about being there and wasting his time. I think of all people that were pissed, Joe had the biggest right, his computer has been fucked with so much that it doesn't even know what it is anymore. But we did get to play a little, but decided that the next game we played as a group would be over the internet sometime. So afterwords I brought my computer to Joel's house with the assumption that rosie was coming over too, but he didn't bring his computer. So we essentially sat around and listened to music. I got new video card drivers yesterday (the same one's joel got that he mentioned) which now let me play counter-strike in openGL mode and see everything properly. While I'm being a dork here, I'd like to also mention that just a little while ago, I disabled virtual memory on my computer because I wanted to defrag my hard drive, and when I restarted my system, after turning of VM, my system resources were 98% free (as opposed to 94% which is what they are with VM on) I just thought that was kinda wierd that's all. I finally left Joel's house at around 5 o'clock because I descerned that he didn't want me there at that time, which is understandable so I left. Today I did not much of anything. I went to Hans's house briefly to drop off some cds, and Joe came over with his computer cause the CD-ROM was busted so I fixed that, but other than that I haven't really gotten much done. Well, on a more retarded note, there are problems that are surfacing once again in the "group". (speaking of which, yes I will eventually finish the friends page, I am just really lazy.) Hans is still screwed up over the whole Marci thing, He is having a hard time accepting her plans for the summer (see Dec 4th 1999), althogh I can't say that from his point of view I wouldn't feel the same way. But honestly Hans, I know from talking to you that you know better, and there is apparently very little anyone can say to you to fix this, it's gonna have to be something you do on your own. And the longer you allow it to go, the longer it's going to really really suck for you. All I can say is good luck. And as far as Marci goes... ...well, to tell you the truth I don't think any of us knows how Marci feels about the whole thing. We shouldn't assume that she doesn't have her bad nights because of this whole thing either. What she chooses to do is her choice, I wish her luck as well. So as I am apparently quasi-groundered for being out until five last night, I tried to go to sleep a little early, but can't help laying awake with my thoughts... ...Come home Katie :).

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