chaz720.net - journal

July 05, 2001

see i'm leaving. this warehouse frightens me, has me tied up in knots. can't rest for a moment. soom i'm going i'm slippin' slow away, hoping to find something better than i've got inside of here. the warehouse slips away. hey reckless mind, don't throw away your playful beginning. you and i will fumble around in the touches, and be sure to leave all the lights on. so we can see the black cat changing colors, and we can walk under the ladders, and swim as the tide turns you around and around. hey we have found, becoming one in a million, slip into the crowd. this question if found in a gap in the sidewalk. keep all your sights on. see the black cat changing colors, and you can walk under ladders, and swim as the tide choose to turn you, and here is it. life goes on, end of tunnel, tv set, spot in the middle. state fade, statistical bit. and soon i'll fade away, i'll fade away. this i admit, taste so good, hard to believe an end to it. smell touch feel, how could this rhythm ever quit? bags packed on a plane, hopefully to heaven. shut up i'm thinking. i had a clue now it's gone forever. sitting over these bones, you can read in whatever you're needing to. keep all your sights on. yeah man, the black cat changing colors. when it's not the colors that matter, but that they'll all fade away. this i admit. seems so good. hard to believe an end to it. warehouse is bare, nothing at all inside of it. walls and halls have disappeared. my love i love to stay here. my love i love to stay here. in a corner was wondering, if a change could be better than this. and then i worry, maybe things won't be better than they have been here in the warehouse. at the warehouse. how i love to stay here, at the warehouse. every man and woman get alive. that's our blood down there. seems poured from the hands of angels, but trickle into the ground. leaves the warehouse bare and empty. my heart's numbered beat, still echo in this empty room. fear wells in me, but nothing seems enough to defend, so i am going away.

hey, how 'bout that crazy ol' Aggasi and Caprioti... Go USA.

Anyway, Hope you all had a wonderful Fourth of July and I hope that no one got in any trouble with the authorities. I went down to the taste of Chicago on the 3rd with a bunch of my sister's friends to see the fireworks and later went on to a party over at Bill's. Good Times. Yesterday it was a bbq over at Jay's followed by the ritualistic destruction of the world... or rather a small scale model of it, obtained by Sean from Rand McNally. I definately agree with Toby, we need to build little bonfires more often and hang out again, once again, good times.

Well, I learned something interesting the other day, and that is that I shouldn't play Unreal Tournament anymore. I had just gotten my computer for the most part working happily, and I found the CD for Unreal Tournament, a copy of it had come with my new sound card and I'd figured I would install it and just see how it ran on my, for all practical purposes, new system. (a note on that, I feel as though when you format your machine and start over after not having done so in probably around 2 years, and install a different OS, it's like you have a new machine all the sudden.) Well, the installation went swimmingly, and the game started up with the always familiar, often too dark intro which I skipped to get right into the game, clicked options and went to preferen- oh wait it seems my screen has gone blank... So I hit the reset button but my computer fails to restart. So I turn it off and wait and switch it back on... again nothing. So I crack my case off and look at the motherboard's post lights and it appeared to be getting stuck at "early chipset initialization". Which, just so you know, in the computer world is a symptom shared with "getting hit by a truck syndrome". Yeah, that was about a week ago and my computer still doesn't work, prolly ought to do something about that. Well, I ordered a new motherboard for it so, let's all hope that helps, oh and yes fuck epic megagames

Oh, and I don't even want to talk too much about it as I fear I will probably jinx myself out of being able to actually use it, but it looks as though I will finally be able to get broadband at my place of residence. Not somuch for me, but for my sister who will be living here for a year or so, and she really would use it a lot to get music with bearshare or something along those lines. And yeah, when I'm in town I'd use it too. If you don't want to sort through that page, I'll give you a quick sum up

50 bucks a month
5Mbps downstream
256kbps upstream
Uses wireless microwave antennea
equipment is 200 bucks
free installation
fucking availible in my area

Based on the fact that the speed at which the cable and DSL people were rolling out service to new areas was actually slower then the contrary movement of the geotectonic plates, I came to the conclusion that these services will never be available in my area. So the natural solution was to go for some form of wireless communication, which is far less susceptible to progression of the earth's crust. The only two solutions available at press time are two-way satellite and microwave. So I was comparing the two and found that microwave was better in essentially every way imaginable, and it wasn't even really a choice. Satellite's upstream is rediculously slow, and the latency of the signal is, in a best-case scenario, half a second on top of any ground-line latency, which is deplorable for gaming. Largely due to the fact that the signal travels about 92,000 miles everytime you send it out. Comparitvely, the signal that my connection will be using will be with the Sears Tower in downtown Chicago, or aproximately 34 miles away. And as far as the internet goes, Chicago is wired up like I am on caffine this morning. So once the information gets there it's homefree to wherever it chooses to roam.

So I keep going on and on about adding this, that, or the other to my car to get some added performance out of it (all in all, 30 horses or so.) but as I've said, I think that this is one of those things I'm going to consider doing but never actually get around to. Yes, it would cut a couple seconds off my 0-60 time, and yes, it would make my car more fun to toss around, but then I had to ask myself just one question... do I really want to drive around in a rice-burner? And the answer being, not particularly. The only reason I was considering doing anything is because it would truely make my car unique. It seems trite and un-inspring to me, to take a car and make the 14 millionth modified instance of it, it just loses something after a while I guess. And I think that it would be cooler to explore some new grounds, maybe surprize people rather then just stirring up a round of sighs. And if you have time, I reccomend reading this page. It's basicallt just someone tired of all the honda civic/acura integra hype. The guy there is a little bit extreme in his preachings, but he still raises some good points, worth a minute or two.

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