chaz720.net - journal

October 19, 2001

It starts with you. One thing, I don't know why, It doesn't even matter how hard you try. Keep that in mind i designed this rhyme to explain in due time all I know. Time is a valuable thing. Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings. Watch it count down to the end of the day. The clock ticks life away, It's so unreal. Didn't look out below. Watch the time go right out the window. Trying to hold on, didn't even know, I wasted it all just to watch you go. I kept everythin inside, And even though I tried, It all fell apart. What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard. Tried so hard and got so far. But in the end, it doesn't even matter. I had to fall to lose it all. But in the end it doesn't even matter. One thing, I don't know why, It doesn't even matter how hard you try. Keep that in mind i designed this rhyme to remind myself how I tried so hard. I tried so hard In spite of the way you were mocking me. Acting like I was part of your property. Remembering all the times you fought with me, I'm surprised it got so far. Things aren�t the way they were before. You wouldn�t even recognize me anymore. Not that you knew me back then, But it all comes back to me in the end. I kept everything inside, And even though I tried, It all fell apart. What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard. Tried so hard and got so far. But in the end, it doesn�t even matter. I had to fall to lose it all. But in the end it doesn�t even matter. I put my trust in you Pushed as far as I can go For all this There�s only one thing you should know I Tried so hard and got so far. But in the end, it doesn�t even matter. I had to fall to lose it all. But in the end it doesn�t even matter.

Well I attempted to put this on the front page of my site but it was met with a rather substantial quantity of suggestions as to better places I could stick it. So bleh, fine, I took it down, no one likes it, I have failed to amuse you.

So as you know I made changes to the posting script to make it a little bit nicer, including the option to type urls and have it generate links for you. Joel was kind enough to be the first to post a link on my page, and lo and be-fucking-hold it was a link to goatse.cx. You know, I'm really tired of that crap, seriously. I thought that it was plenty funny to trick people into going to that page when maybe 50% of the entire population of the world knew about it. you'd hide links and all that fun crap and it was a good laugh because it was so unpleasent, and we should all no better than going there. It is now officially no longer funny, for christ's sake. Now it seems like anytime someone has a text box that they can enter something into it must contain a link to that damn site, and I'm tired of it. Besides, people like my mom read this site so show a little fucking respect for it. I've put up with all the damn obsceneties, hoping that anyone that sees this site as a reflection of me can do the same. But c'mon a link to goatse? I wasn't amused in the least.

While it's nice for all of us as a community of people who know about this page to have a form of anonymous communication, could we please do something more constructive than trying to offend me? I took the liberty of making any links to goatse or the others (comp-u-geek, etc) be automatically changed to links to disney.com. So if you want to post links to sites like that then you can save it for something awful

The next step will be banning people's hosts from being able to post here and I really don't want to do that, you know I don't.

But now I've had two quizes and all my roommates are still asleep, so I think I'm going to go to Best Buy and buy a couple of cds or something, cause I feel like if I sit at my computer any longer I'm going to get a link to goatse sent to me, and then I'll have to kill someone.

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