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April 03, 2003

Today is the greatest day I've ever known. Can't live for tomorrow; tomorrow's much too long. I'll burn my eyes out, before I get out. I wanted more than life could ever grant me. Bored by the chore of saving face. Today is the greatest day I've ever known. Can't wait for tomorrow; I might not have that long. I'll tear my heart out before I get out. Pink ribbon scars that never forget. I tried so hard to cleanse these regrets. My angel wings were bruised and restrained. My belly stings. Today is the greatest day. I want to turn you on; I want to turn you. Today is the greatest day that I have ever really known.

Fantastic news (at least for me, you reserve the right not to care, but this is highly discouraged) I got a call from Motorola staffing saying that I will be working in Florida this summer. I probably had the dumbest looking grin on my face all day but I don't really care as it would have been fitting to my mood.

I don't really know any of the specifics as there is some paperwork to go through before anything is set in stone, but I'll have details, dates, etc. as they come.

Three of my classes are actually really interesting and cool right now, and one is terribly, terribly horrible. Doing things like designing digital filters, creating a circuit that reads in data from a standard keyboard and displays keystrokes, or learning about new ways to organize data to retrieve and modify it more efficiently is all great. But really someone, somewhere needs to be doing a better job of making me care about holes as they cross junctions and try to move across the base before being recombined with electrons. Because at the moment I just don't, my only interest is getting through ece340.

The new Zelda game is my favorite yet. It is most definitely so fresh and so clean. It plays with the same feel of the 64-series Zelda games, so it was easy to pick up and get into. But the type of play, and look of the game are all new from the old ones making it not just an excersize in endurance like Majora's Mask was.

Everyone welcome April to the 2003 party. She brought the nice weather, so everyone enjoy it, it's next to the fruit punch.

April 15, 2003

She's not a girl who misses much. She's well acquainted with the touch of the velvet hand. Like a lizard on a window pane. The man in the crowd with the multicoloured mirrors on his hobnail boots. Lying with his eyes while his hands are busy working overtime. A soap impression of his wife which he ate, and donated to the Nation Trust. I need a fix 'cause I'm going down. Down to the bits that I left uptown. I need a fix cause I'm going down. Mother Superior jump the gun. Happiness is a warm gun. When I hold you in my arms, and I feel my finger on your trigger. I know no one can do me no harm, because happiness is a warm gun.

Really tired of driving... particularly when it involves driving all the way back to the 'burbs to go to the dentist.

I was completely dead last week, and every time I almost made a chance for myself to make up some sleep, Sam shows up at midnight and all plans go out the window. I'd end up pissing the night away with her and David. Not that I'm really complaining, to be busy is to not be bored, and I'd rather be anything but bored. But occasionally you just have to get some rest.

No tests this week. This being just as well, what with that horrendous ece340 test last thursday. We haven't gotten grades back yet, but my professor mentioned today about a test he saw that had 5 points right (yes, out of 100) and while it may be true that said person probably can't just blame the difficulty of the test for their score, it doesn't bode very well for the rest of us.

No final word on the details of the internship but the wheels are in motion as they say. Again... more details as they turn up.

Zelda... ah yes Zelda. I beat it yesterday. David watched so he, "wouldn't have to go and beat it himself." conveying our somewhat mutual regard that the end of the game was relatively drawn out, and in other ways longer than it needed to be. But it was done so in a way that didn't really deviate from normal Zelda form. And once you got to the actual final area of the game it played out really well. Overall I'd definately play it again if I had it to do over. It was ceratinly a nice break from everything at times.

Now I just need a new game to play.

April 21, 2003

I live in an apartment on the ninety-ninth floor of my block. And I sit at home looking out the window, imagining the world has stopped. Then in flies a guy who's all dressed up like a Union Jack. And says, "I've won five pounds if I have his kind of detergent pack!" I said, Hey! You! Get off of my cloud! Don't hang around 'cause two's a crowd on my cloud, baby. The telephone is ringing. I say, "Hi, it's me. Who is it there on the line?" A voice says, "Hi, hello, how are you?" Well, I guess I'm doin' fine. He says, "It's three a.m., there's too much noise Don't you people ever wanna go to bed? Just 'cause you feel so good, do you have To drive me out of my head?" I said, Hey! You! Get off of my cloud! Don't hang around 'cause two's a crowd on my cloud, baby. I was sick and tired, fed up with this, and decided to take a drive downtown. It was so very quiet and peaceful; there was nobody, not a soul around. I laid myself out, I was so tired and I started to dream. In the morning the parking tickets were just like a flag stuck on my window screen. I said, Hey! You! Get off of my cloud! Don't hang around 'cause two's a crowd on my cloud.

A few updates since our last episode...

I start my intership, earlier than I originally expected, on May 19th. This will lead to some of what I call "power moving" in the few days after I get done with finals. Nothing like a little pressure to make sure you get things done though, plus now I get a big clump of time at the end of the summer after I'll have made a bunch of money :D

Hans and I found a place to live next year. It's only a couple-few blocks further away from here, and it, and it's parking, are just so much cheaper than here I don't care about the walk. Plus it is actually a three-bedroom place so we intend to move the desks into the extra room and make it a "get shit done chamber" of sorts. The place has some potential to be pretty nice, even if the carpeting reminds me of my days at Fremd.

I have a new game for the gamecube called Ikaruga. You may (probably have not) heard it mentioned on Penny-Arcade in the past. By Atari, it recently came out in the US but it has been an arcade game in Japan for a long time now. Basically, it's like your classic 1942/3 or Galaxia for the NES (you fly around in a tiny ship on the screen and blow up countless enemy craft as they fling completely impractical amounts of beam-ordinance at you that you must avoid along with random objects that are flying through the air, and the enemy ships themselves) the key difference here being that there are two types of shots the enemies fire, black and white. You must constantly change the color of your ship to be immune to shots of that color, as you'll find the screen completely swamped with one color or the other at any given time.

The other key difference is that this game, I'm convinced, is completely impossible even on "easy" mode, which is anything but. As Tycho said, hard mode likely just gives you cancer and kills you. But really, who wants a game you can just conquer without any effort?

April 30, 2003

My friends are so depressed. I feel the question of your loneliness. Confide, `cause I'll be on your side; you know I will, you know I will. Ex-girlfriend called me up, alone and desperate on the prison phone. They want to give her 7 years for being sad. I love all of you, hurt by the cold. So hard and lonely too, when you don't know yourself. My friends are so distressed, and standing on the brink of emptiness. No words I know of to express, this emptiness. Imagine me taught by tragedy, release is peace. I heard a little girl, and what she said was something beautiful, "To give your love no matter what."

I'm such a retard about updating these days, nothing I really feel like writing about most of the time I suppose. I mentioned a while ago I'd rather not just write about "hey, I had a test" or "hey, I took a shit today." but until I come up with something better...

The race is on, it would seem, to get as many assignments, projects, sections of material, mps, and other misc crap in before the semester is over. I'm not exactly sure why the syllibus always seems to compress like this at the end, but with ece you can pretty much expect it. (must be some kind of bi-linear transform to explain it)

Scores seem to be coming back alright from the last round of midterms I went through (including a 70 on my ece340 test woohoo!) and that's good, cause I have to admit I was really swamped when I took them, so it's good to get the positive feedback.

We signed the lease for the apartment and the parking today which is good. It's finally all set (with a whole two weeks to spare) and we both got parking spots right next to the building for 25 bucks a month which is excellent. As nice as it is to have a garage spot where I am now, really, the ramp and alleyway behind the building combined with the unnavigable construction that always plagues the campustown streets makes parking here more of a headache then it's worth at times. One might argue that I'd have to brush the snow off my car in the winter now, and really I'd be happy to, if I'm at least guaranteed the ability to then use my car. That would be something a particularly icey ramp doesn't always afford me.

For the third year in a row my car will be getting new plates this May. (old illinos plates->old firefighter plates->new firefighter plates) Oh yippee. I haven't gotten them from the Ps yet but I hope they didn't make them too increibly fugly looking now. Supposedly they are pretty much the same thing with just larger lettering so that the po-pos can read them more easily. Whatever I don't care... I go 75 on the interstate.

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